I’m trying to work my way through Writer’s Block. I’ve read a bunch of posts about how I should calm myself or go out for a walk. I’ve practiced calming techniques and told myself not to worry. The truth, however, is that I don’t think much of it is working.
My story has been closed off to me.
Now, if this was my first draft, I might understand it a little bit more. It’s plausible that I could hit a point where I didn’t know where my story was going or I had simply run out of steam in writing it.
But this is my third rewrite. I know how the story is going to go. All I need to do is fix up some of the characters and dialogue, flesh out the descriptions and backstory.
Except I can’t.
When I sit down to write, nothing comes out. And, if it does, it’s very little, and very slow.
So, what does that mean? I honestly have no idea.
I’ve been going back and forth between ditching the story for now and coming back to it at a later time and pushing through no matter how painful it is. And while I think the latter has an admirable quality to it, I can’t help but find myself thinking that something like that isn’t why I chose to be a writer.
I love my stories. I love my characters. I don’t want them to tear at my soul and make me feel empty and withering at the end of the day.
Okay, that’s probably an exaggeration. But the sentiment is there.
So, again, what does it mean? I still have no idea.
The other day I had given myself a ten-day deadline to keep working on the story. Today (three days later) I feel like giving up. I suppose that says a lot.
Maybe this isn’t the right time for me to get to this story. Maybe after spending years working on it (yes, years), I need to put it to rest.
Ugh, I can’t believe I actually just wrote that; but, yes, maybe this is the path I need to take.
All right, this post is getting a little overwhelming for me right now. Time to take a break. Or, at least, get a coffee (which I try to save for special occasions and when I get my migraines).
Has anyone else out there gone through anything like this? Am I out of my mind for even considering it? Please, please, please let me know.